“We may lose we may win but we’ll never be here again…”-Eagles Take it Easy

Ahh if ever there was a song that reminded me of my mind this is it. I’ve got at least 7 things running through my head at any given moment, 4 of them want to take control, 2 that make me feel like I’m the worst person in the world, and 1 swears it’s the way out.
I keep telling myself to relax and deal with one moment at a time, but the sound of my own wheels are driving me crazy. Okay I’ll stop there you get the point. Not only am I Bipolar but I’m a rapid cycle with mixed episodes. I can hear people now “WTF?”
Rapid cycling basically means that I run through my moods more often than the normal person. Only for fun, I don’t do what an average rapid cycler does and cycle 2-3 times a year which is still plenty fast. But I shoot for about 6 weeks. I’m super fun that way.
Mixed episodes mean in the short that I’m stuck in a state of a major depression with horrible anxiety. It’s the deer in the headlights I spoke about before. I see the car coming, part of me says run, the other part says just stand here maybe he’ll hit me and it will be over.
Due to fantastic counseling and amazing medicine, I have not cycled in over a year. Yes I have had periods of anxiety, but not horrible. I’ve had some depression but not horrible. Just the kind every one has or doesn’t I guess if you’re really lucky.
I’ve learned a few tricks. One when I start to think of the worst possible thing happening in a situation, I ask myself, “What if that doesn’t happen? And you didn’t go and everything turned out just fine?” And two I remind myself of the words of this song, “We may lose we may win but we will never be here again.” Such a valid statement for me. No matter what happens in that situation I will never repeat it again.
Well, I’m running down the road
tryin’ to loosen my load
I’ve got seven women on
my mind,
Four that wanna own me,
Two that wanna stone me,
One says she’s a friend of mine
Take It easy, take it easy
Don’t let the sound of your own wheels
drive you crazy
Lighten up while you still can
don’t even try to understand
Just find a place to make your stand
and take it easy
Well, I’m a standing on a corner
in Winslow, Arizona
and such a fine sight to see
It’s a girl, my Lord, in a flatbed
Ford slowin’ down to take a look at me
Come on, baby, don’t say maybe
I gotta know if your sweet love is
gonna save me
We may lose and we may win though
we will never be here again
so open up, I’m climbin’ in,
so take it easy
Well I’m running down the road trying to loosen
my load, got a world of trouble on my mind
lookin’ for a lover who won’t blow my
cover, she’s so hard to find
Take it easy, take it easy
don’t let the sound of your own
wheels make you crazy
come on baby, don’t say maybe
I gotta know if your sweet love is
gonna save me, oh oh oh
Oh we got it easy
We oughta take it easy

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